Beginning Again
Benedictine Wisdom for Living with Illness

 

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In this extraordinarily comforting and challenging book, Mary Earle takes the setbacks of chronic illness or disability and reframes them as powerful tools for keeping a rule of life.  The ancient Benedictine ways of humility, prayer, and self-knowledge counter the urge to rush, multitask, push and shove one's way into the superficial busyness that so often passes for excellence in the world." 

Barbara Cawthorne Crafton
author of Some Things You Just Have to Live With.


Mary Earle, who knows from experience what she is talking about, writes, 'When we live with illness and let it help us establish a new rule of life, we act in faith.' Earle's own re-patterning of her life has risen out of the reality of acute pancreatitis. Hers is no greeting card theology, but a thoughtful crafting of daily life grounded in Christian belief and practice. You do not have to be ill to benefit and grow from reading this remarkable account of a life transformed. If you are ill, the book is a 'must read.'"

Corinne Ware
 Asst Professor of Ascetical Theology
Episcopal Theological Seminary in Austin, Texas
and author of Saint Benedict on the Freeway.

 



 Kaleidoscope: “an optical instrument in which bits of glass, held loosely at the end of a rotating tube, are shown in continually changing symmetrical patterns by reflection in two or more mirrors set at angles to each other.”(p. 1043, Random House Dictionary of the English Language, 2nd edition, 1987)  This is the initial image author Mary Earle uses when she describes what serious or chronic illness does to a person’s life; as an image it works extremely well because she is right when she says that “illness turns the lens whether we want it turned or not.”

The Reverend Mary C. Earle is an Episcopalian cleric whose personal life, parish ministry, and graduate studies were intruded upon rudely in 1995 by an initial attack of pancreatitis.  Occasional bouts since, of what is now a chronic condition, have required that she make adjustments in her life, in the way she opts to cope with most everything.  So whatever creative and lovely patterns existed in her personal kaleidoscope up to that date, the shifting bits of glass of illness brought unwanted new designs, but ones that have had their own intrigue and beauty.  How so?  

At about the same time she took ill, Earle discovered the Rule of Benedict, and saw it as a positive way to help her live with her medical condition; to her way of thinking, Benedict’s Rule provides sensible, down-to-earth guidance for living with any serious or chronic illness.  Her book presents a reader with the benefits of doing the same.

Earle indicates that her title comes from RB 73:8, and she cites it as “Always we begin again,” from St. Benedict’s Prayer Book for Beginners, published out of Ampleforth Abbey.  Earle knows well that any serious or chronic illness is full of new beginnings, and she addresses them honorably.  In doing so, she does not ignore the necessary dyings/losses that inevitably accompany the new starts.

Earle delves into the Rule when she considers critical aspects of one’s life that must be adjusted due to illness and allots a chapter to each: work, nutrition, exercise, medication, prayer, and rest.  The balance so central to Benedict Earle finds to be just as central when a person is adapting to new regimes demanded by an illness.  At the end of each chapter, she provides some suggestions for reflection, questions to ask oneself on that subject, and a closing prayer.

The last portion of the book looks at the monastic vows in light of how they can be applied to living with illness.  One is reminded of the kaleidoscope here because the notions of change plus symmetry recall the paradox and challenge of living conversatio and stability, and being obedient to that endeavor.  Applying the vows to an illness also compels one to see that the flexibility, resilience, patience, perseverance, and humor required to live those vows must also come into play when living with an illness.

This book is helpful because it is uncompromising in its approach; yet it focuses on the transformative aspects of an illness and the extent to which the afflicted individual can – through illness – be open to “the deepest mystery of our faith”: that in our difficulties “God in Christ is with us,”(25) encouraging us to hallow those difficulties and live them “in a God-ward direction”(122) so one’s life still can bear fruit.

The book is worthwhile, as well, for those who interact with or assist a person living with serious or chronic illness: family, friends, health care personnel, clergy, counselors.  With some creative reading, it also has merit for those whose lives have made major shifts for reasons other than illness: retirement, for example.

Phyllis K. Thompson, Nanaimo, BC
 
Vivir con la enfermedad muchas veces es inevitable. Sabemos que es poco probable que la enfermedad desaparezca. De hecho, se transforma en una fuerza determinante en la vida cotidiana.
La enfermedad trae consigo limitaciones y aflicciones, disminuciones y pérdidas. En la cultura imperante suele considerarse que una vida con enfermedad no es una vida vigorosa, ni tampoco creativa. La posibilidad de que ofrezca nuevos dones ocultos tras las limitaciones es inimaginable. ¡Y ciertamente no podría ser espiritual! Mary C. Earle nos revela, en cambio, que la enfermedad nos da la posibilidad de elegir volver a empezar, de dejar que la enfermedad nos enseñe a establecer una nueva regla para vivir en una dirección en la que Dios nos protege, abriéndonos a algo nuevo, a algo vivo, a algo eterno. Cada una de las páginas de esta obra transmite la certeza de que, cualquiera sea tu enfermedad, cualquiera sea la realidad diaria en la que vivas, es posible que en los detalles, en las dificultades, en los triunfos, un nuevo modo de vida comience, y tú vuelvas a empezar.
 

 

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